Grace on Grace on Grace

Before I had a blog, I kept a note in my phone with potential blog topics. One of them was "God shouldn't have to deliver you from the same thing twice." Well since then, I kept on living, kept on praying, kept on messing up, & kept on needing God. Needless to say, in some areas of my life, being deliverT only twice is something I now celebrate. And I thank God for grace on grace on grace.

But he said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.” Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ’s power may rest on me. That is why, for Christ’s sake, I delight in weaknesses, in insults, in hardships, in persecutions, in difficulties. For when I am weak, then I am strong.

2 Corinthians 12: 9-10

There is something interesting about the idea of delighting in weaknesses. It's connected to self-awareness and I'm at a point where self-awareness is my greatest flex. This is very different than my truth at the point where I had the desire to write a blog post that perpetuated perfectionism. It was as if I believed that I could actually be perfect if I gave it my all. This belief also perpetuated polarization, the idea that things can only be one thing or another. Shoutout to my therapist for helping me to see that I can be a lot of good and a little bad and still be worthy. I’m not a saint or a sinner. I’m a flawed believer doing my best.